I crumpled where I stood on the Somewhere Between Proverbs 31 & Beth Dutton There’s Me Classic T-Shirt and I will buy this porch of this unkempt cabin in the middle of the Alaskan wilderness. The enormity of what I was taking on hit me, and I felt small, powerless to redirect a life that, it seemed, had already been set on an irrevocable course. It was simple: How I was raised was how I would live. I saw it all in a terrible, illuminating flash. Just as I had received a genetic inheritance, so did I receive an emotional one. The anger. The abuse. The isolation. The alcoholism. It didn’t take a genius to see that kids like me became a statistic.
Don’t get me wrong, I also inherited the Somewhere Between Proverbs 31 & Beth Dutton There’s Me Classic T-Shirt and I will buy this good, and I saw that: I come from a creative, bright, adventurous, philosophical, and loquacious people. My childhood was full of self-possessed capable aunts who cut their own timber and built their own homes and ran their own cattle businesses. I had a father who let me work horses rather than cook, because there were no gender-assigned roles in Alaska. Everyone wrote their own music and poetry, played a variety of self-taught instruments, and painted and sculpted with impressive proficiency. I am certainly not the only “talent” in my clan. And sometimes bitter fruit grows alongside the sweet.